Life

步步惊心

2012-02-11T23:48:00.000-08:00

昨晚熬夜到凌晨五点（应该算清晨了吧）把《步步惊心》这部戏看完了。我很少熬夜追戏，一是因为家里的网速很慢，每每要看一部戏必须等它loading完才能看。往往这一等必须花个大半天，所以索性不看了。二来我也不是什么韩剧发烧友，没那个闲情逸致追一部又一部的戏。所以啊，能吸引我熬通宵看的连续剧必属佳品~哈哈~《步步惊心》就是有这股魅力与吸引力 :) 刚接触这部戏是受妹妹的影响，去年十二月放假时她就是靠每天一集的《步步惊心》来度过她的假期生活的。（一天只能看一集因为她有打工）当初，我还笑她看什么paliah的中国戏。回想起来我还真是愚昧啊-.-

故事大纲：

作为一个朝九晚五的普通白领，除了模样长得挺招人喜爱，现年二十多岁的张晓和周围其他忙忙碌碌的都市人基本没什么区别。张晓谈过几次无疾而终的恋爱，谈不上深刻却也对她有点影响。做着一份不喜爱也不讨厌的工作，为了薪水再多一些位置再高一些，她也能整天乐呵呵地投入到与战争一样残酷的职场斗争中去。她按部就班地计划着自己的未来的人生——房子，旅游，恋爱。在张晓的前半生里，无论她做的还是她想的，几乎都与普通人一样，为了更好的生活奋斗着，乐此不疲。但张晓的内心总有着一种牵动，她自己也说不出个名堂来，只觉得冥冥之中，似乎还存在着另一种生活。那一天，张晓与男友黄棣在路上吵架，不料，在争吵中，张晓撞到了连着电线的广告板上，而这一撞击，也把她的灵魂撞进了清朝的宫廷中。就像铺天盖地的穿越小说里写的那样，张晓的灵魂跨过时间的隧道，在一个叫马尔泰.若曦的十三岁清朝女孩的体内，重生了。时年，康熙第四十三年。天下太平，但一场震动历史的“九龙夺嫡”正在暗潮涌动。权利的厮杀，爱情的灼烧，在被无限放大的历史舞台上，张晓，不，是马尔泰·若曦的命运无可避免的与众位亲王阿哥们交织在一起…她知道自己不该卷入这场九王夺嫡的争斗中，可心不由己，因为这里有她所爱的，也有爱着她的…若曦最后选择的究竟是温润如玉的八阿哥，还是面冷心热的四阿哥，又或是出人意料的其他人? 等历史的风云过后，可以陪她看夕阳西下、云卷云舒的又将是谁？

刘诗诗-马尔泰.若曦

现代职业女性，充满时代感，独立自主，有心思，俱眼界，善观人眉眼，聪明醒目，会权衡利害，带点现代人的现实，是个白领俪人，职场打混三年，和男朋友争吵分手时遭遇意外，穿越到清朝康熙年间。初到古代表现比较莽撞大胆，但凭现代丰富知识，敏锐和细腻的观察及揣摩，加上对历史了解，屡次让她化险为夷，并借助若曦的小女孩身份，以娇俏灵动作为掩护自保，心思谨慎，凡事步步为营，在八王府及入宫后，摸透了周边环境，处事越发周详，冷静，不轻易得罪人，也不轻易被表面现象蒙骗，是个既理性又感性的女人，重友情，讲义气，在朋友遇到危难时，会不惜舍命维护。　　
八阿哥清风朗月八面玲珑，让若曦心生仰慕，加上闻知他对姐姐痴情，姐姐却心有所属与他貌合神离，让若曦由怜生爱。八阿哥的默默守护让若曦在彷徨孤独中有依靠，芳心终被打动。若曦全心全意接受八阿哥，更毅然求他放弃争夺皇位，奈何八阿哥最终选择江山，若曦深受打击。　　

四阿哥毫无戒心的坦诚让她义无反顾相信，当四阿哥下意识舍命相救，若曦决定一生追随。得知几位阿哥相继悲惨收场源于自己，若曦情绪崩溃，心灰意冷离开皇宫…经历几番爱恨嗔痴，若曦身心俱疲再也支撑不住，临终前，她彷佛听到一阵歌声，引她入梦…

爱新觉罗·胤禛（吴奇隆饰）
　　冷静内敛，深藏不露。喜欢宁静，享受孤独，不轻易相信和接受人，一旦接受就会永远放在心里守护，不管是对兄弟还是爱人。有着帝王的冷酷和现实，对国家和权力的渴望。对兄弟和爱人不算是完人，若曦和13弟是他的软肋，他们的离世，带走了他全部的脆弱，成就了一代名帝。

爱新觉罗·胤禩（郑嘉颖饰）

　　清风和月、温润如玉的皇子。因母亲身份低下，成就八面玲珑的做事风格。对于爱情有浪漫的冲动、痴情，但不敌对权力的渴望。想得到权力却功亏一篑；想得到若兰却换来终生怨恨；想得到若曦却在得到后被她放弃；明白心意谁属时却永远失去。数十载走过，一场镜花水月……

爱新觉罗·胤祥（袁弘饰）
　　十三阿哥，诗文翰墨，皆工敏清新，精于骑射，发必命中，驰骤如飞。最富才气的皇子，却对皇位毫无觊觎，甚至渴望仗剑江湖的快意。对四皇子的兄弟之情，注定他无法实现理想，只能拴在庙堂之上。一生有痴情，但感情只是点缀，最重要的是对朋友对兄弟的生死与共。他是整个小说中最懂若曦的人，用“无关风月，只为真心”来形容他与若曦的关系最为贴切。他是个很重感情的人，为四哥背负了陷害，对若曦时时维护，对绿芜始终不忘，对承欢因为爱而不敢爱。他不是当明君的材料，但他是历史不会忘却的贤臣。

爱新觉罗·胤祯（林更新饰）
　　年少时洒脱、桀骜，成年时豪气、温柔，敢爱敢恨。对兄弟有情义，在年少时甚至愿牺牲性命守护八阿哥，但随着年纪增长，逐渐有了自己想要的权力和想要守护的，他有了自己的私心。所有人当中，只有他敢一次次为了若曦犯上，不惜冒着生命危险保全若曦。

还有很多演员，不过真要upload的话要花很多时间，所以如果有兴趣的话不妨自己google search吧 :D 很喜欢里头的演员，无论大小配角都演得很到位。总之一句话，这部戏就是赞啦！^_^

百听不厌的片尾曲，还有英文歌词呢！

三寸天堂

停在这里不敢走下去 Stopping where we could not move on well,

让悲伤无法上演 For fear of the tragedy recurring,

下一页你亲手写上的离别 Next page you imprint your farewell,

由不得我拒绝 Despite my insisting.

这条路我们走得太匆忙This is the road we’ve gone in haste,

拥抱着并不真实的欲望 With wishes and hopes unreal,

来不及等不起回头欣赏 With no time for us to retaste.

木兰香遮不住伤Our tragedy even the magnolia can’t seal.

不再看，No longer see

天上太阳透过云彩的光Through clouds the glowing Eye

不再找，No longer seek

约定了的天堂 The Heaven we’ve promised.

不再叹，No longer sigh

你说过的人间世事无常Life’s vicissitude you’ve premised,

借不到的三寸日光A wisp of sunshine we’ll never bespeak.

停在这里不敢走下去 Stopping where we could not move on well,

让悲伤无法上演 For fear of the tragedy recurring,

下一页你亲手写上的离别 Next page you imprint your farewell,

由不得我拒绝 Despite my insisting.

这条路我们走得太匆忙 This is the road we’ve gone in haste,

拥抱着并不真实的欲望 With wishes and hopes unreal,

来不及等不及回头欣赏 With no time for us to retaste.

木兰香遮不住伤Our tragedy even the magnolia can’t seal.

不再看，No longer see

天上太阳透过云彩的光 Through clouds the glowing Eye

不再找，No longer seek

约定了的天堂 The Heaven we’ve promised.

不再叹，No longer sigh

你说过的人间世事无常 Life’s vicissitude you’ve premised,

借不到的三寸日光 A wisp of sunshine we’ll never bespeak.

不再看，No longer see

天上太阳透过云彩的光 Through clouds the glowing Eye

不再找，No longer seek

约定了的天堂 The Heaven we’ve promised.

不再叹，No longer sigh

你说过的人间世事无常 Life’s vicissitude you’ve premised,

借不到的三寸日光 A wisp of sunshine we’ll never bespeak.

那天堂是我爱过你的地方 A Heaven where have I loved thee.

Becoming a stronger person

2012-02-07T07:59:00.000-08:00

Hardships does make me become stronger and gain my maturity,
21 years old is waving to me,no longer a naive and innocent teenage girl,
I need to become responsibly to myself
I am the only owner for my future, not anyone else.

2011-09-11T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hi!So freaking long time NEVER updated my blog.Looks like the Blogger has a new setting now?Whatever.Just feel like writing something here today.Well tomorrow I'm going to have my first final exam in college.I am SO LAZY to study for my exam.I know I'll pass for sure.But it isn't possible for setting my target at a "C" or even "D" right? I just hate tomorrow first two subjects.Accounting and Quantitative Analysis.I've never been good in maths so I am very sure I'll screw up my QA.Just hope that I can get a C at least.Ahhhhhh why am I always so fuck up when it comes to figures and calculating thingy?! As for my Accounting,I did quite good in my last test and also my assignment.But for the exam tomorrow,I seriously don't think I can score well.Let's hope to get a B.Due to my lazyness,B is the BEST result I could ask for -.-

I hate exam,any kind of it!

Updated

2011-07-20T02:18:00.000-07:00

Here comes my first blog post on July :D Basically i am writing one post in every month.Just say that I am lazy :p
So I've done my first mid-term test in college and past my term-break.Well everything is alright except Quantitative Analysis(QA),It's something like maths and I hate it :( But I have to learn to like it.June was a happy month for me because I spent a lot of time with my friends.Now most of them are going back to continue their new semester.My college life is ok overall,but..sigh..I feel like I am alone in class.Not that no one talks to me but I just feel that we won't be good friends.Like the kind of friends I have now.Like I don't belong to any groups.I know it's a normal in college or even university.People comes and go.I am still fine :)

Assignment II right after term break.I MUST DO WELL IN MY ASSIGNMENT BECAUSE IT WILL AFFECT MY GRADE!This time we are going to do group assignment,power point and presentation.Yes,presentation,what an excited moment.Haha.And my tuition went smoothly i guess? I don't like to have my own tuition class at home but I have to!I need MONEY,that's the matter.Pray hard my students do well in their coming exam.Lol.I am nervous for their test,WTH!

Oh and one thing I want to talk about here is literally I make friends with my coursemates on FB.Haha.You know I am on-line whenever I am awake,so I was adding them(some of them added me) on FB and comment or like their status.So like we talked on there though we never really talked in real person.Haha.This happened on my last week holidays,and it works when break is over we came back to college.They did talk to me in class.Haha I don't know why but I actually feel happy :) And this pretty girl in my class,she popped out on FB chat and asked me am I from TIGS,I was like yeah.Then she asked again,which primary school u came from?I told her Ai Chun(1).You know what?She thought I can't read or write chinese at all!LMAO!She was surprised I was from Ai Chun(1) coz she thought i was a orang banana(chinese who don't know their mother tongue).-____- LOL anyway,luckily I talked with them on FB,or else they would think I am very hao lian(arrogant) who always be quiet in class.Haha.

So I am now counting for Ms.Yivon Lim coming back from Sarawak!Can't wait!We would have a lot of fun! :D

Happy Dad's Day

2011-06-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

Happy Dad's day to every papa in this world.
How do I celebrate this day?
Well,we had lunch in a restaurant and steamboat at home just now.
I am so full!Lol.I feel like I'm gaining a few pounds these few weeks.
Seriously,I have to register to swimming lesson as soon as possible before I am turning to a fattie :|
After lunch I went to grocery shopping with mom and guess what?I paid the bill coz my mom didn't bring her purse.-.- (I think she purposely did it though.Haha)
Overall today was a happy and relaxing day for me :)
Not talking about my assignment.Dang.....I am so screw!!I don't know how many times do I have to repeat this sentence! I started my assignment earlier though, but I could never finish anything. GAHHHHHHHHH
Oh and yesterday met up with sher yan :) It's been a while since the last time I saw her.We took some random pictures in 505 cafe,yeah the sexy lady boss ;p

my favourite drink honey milk :)

I am currently using my notebook.A free gift given by the college.

I knew some new friends time by time.I noticed one thing,I am the oldest student in my class :(

But,I don't look older to them.*flips hair.Lol

4 assignments,mid-term test all comes in one go.

I hope I can finish all my task.

But I feel good and content about my life, that is the most important thing right?

Lastly,I want to talk something here to my bestie.I don't know what actually has happened between you guys but I seriously hope your fine.Don't hide everything from us ok?I know maybe you don't want us to worry about you or you need space for yourself.But,Hello??We are good sisters right?Our 10 years relationship or more than that is not fake!Last time when I was down your there to support me so this time it is my turn.Don't reject me,I will be sad :'(.Hahaha. Quickly recover ok? :) You know we all are always in your side and support you.Just remember that your not alone even though your so far from us.We can hardly see you too but our heart is together.Haha I am so mushy ;) Don't ever pretend to be strong, No one in this world is strong enough to go through EVERYTHING.So,faster talk to me lah I miss you so much :(

Assignment time!Bye

2011-06-17T09:25:00.001-07:00

A picture tells a story.

So I like taking pictures,because it record your memories no matter sweet or sour.

Movie with sis

2011-06-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to watch movie with my sis since she has started her mid term school holidays.Nobody asked her out so I am such a good sister to accompany her to go shopping :D Haha.We went to watch Fast &The Furious5.It was Wednesday so we got the ticket for only RM5 :D And yes this was the 2nd time I watched this!LOL.But I must say it's still really worth it!

The Rock with his moustache lol

Van Diesel starring as Dominic Toretto

New College Life

2011-05-28T08:03:00.000-07:00

I have finished my first week in college.It's not bad so far, but it would be better if I have some friends going to school with me. Basically my class started at 9am to 11pm or sometimes until 1pm. I am taking Principle Management, Principle Marketing,Accounting and Quantitative Analysis in this semester. Management and Marketing are something related to business, it's not a really tough subjects to me, I guess.Haha.Just need to remember the theories and able to apply them to the questions.And my lecturers for these two subjects are really nice.They would make sure you understand the topic and try to make the lessons as interesting as they could be.I am thinking, if only my F6 teachers can be like them,or half like them,I think I could really get a better result!Just saying. As for my Accounting lecturer, he's a nice guy.I mean,he seems like a gentle guy that won't simply put tantrum to the students,he talked slowly and gently,and also boring. I am glad that I have a basic knowledge of Accounting as I've taken that subject during SPM,though I was really suck in it.But still,I have learnt that before right?Haha. At least I know what's Assets,what's Liability,in what condition we have to debit or credit the account and etc.If I knew nothing about Accounting,I would left behind a lot in class!Cause the lecturer is only talking then writing on the white board.You can imagine the situation.~~Sleepy~~.And this another subject I kinda learnt it before in high school that is QA.It's something like add maths,you know the Mean,Median,Range,Midpoints,Histogram,Probability and so on.Same, I am bad in maths haha but at least I know the topic that lecturer is teaching now.But I am not sure about the other topics after this.Haha I will try my best to make friends with MATHS. I really have to overcome my phobia when it comes to maths.-.- Ughh whatever.

So overall I am really happy can get back to school. I mean I can be a student again,I need not to be a full-time office lady and keep my work routine everyday.I still can't accept the fact that my life would be that bored after few years.Well that's not the thing I need to worry about now.We'll wait and see what happen when the time comes. It feels great to bring again my bag and stationery :) I might sound funny and weird but if you were nearly didn't get the chance to study again, you will know how the feeling I have. Never gone through the situations, you will never learnt.So human especially youngsters like me MUST go through some obstacles in their life only they will cherish it.Haha maybe not for all the people but for me,it should and must.LOL

I am getting tired already,should stop it here.Stay tuned! :)

My school is starting on tomorrow!

2011-05-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

Went to Melacca again with my lovely friends.Shopping and eating are our usual activity when we were over there.We didn't take any pictures.What a pity.

So my college life is starting on tomorrow.Kinda complicated feeling now.I am not really excited but it is a pretty good feeling.Anyway.Hehe at least I don't have to work earlier!Haha.I am glad that I can be a student again,I appreciate it.I never thought I would be this glad of being a student one more time.This chance is not easy to get it.So I should really cherish and not making fool mistake again.Tomorrow I will be in school from 9am to 6pm.Class and orientation.Great.Orientation this word itself made me wordless...Playing games with younger kids.Sounds funI hope there's no introduce yourself section!Gahhhhh..I should really stop thinking about it.

Good night

College

2011-05-15T09:07:00.000-07:00

So I have registered in College Aman this morning with my parents.Paid for the deposit RM400 and the first semester fees is RM3000.I apply for PTPTN too.I am taking Diploma In Business,my semester starts on 23rd May.These are the subjects I have to take within these two and 4 months

1. Accounting
2. Advanced Accounting
3. Business Communication
4. Business English
5. Business Finance
6. Business Skills
7. Financial Management
8. Human Resource Management
9. Legal&Political System
10.Management Accounting
11.Management Information System
12.Macroeconomics
13.Microeconomics
14.Operation Management
15.Principles of Management
16.Principles of Marketing
17.Quantitative Analysis
18.Sociology
19.Computer Studies
20.Psychology

Elective
1. Financial Accounting
2.International Business Law
3.Malaysian Business Law
4.Managerial Economics
5.Management Economics
6.Marketing Management
*choose only 3 subjects

As for the compulsory subjects which are:
1.National Language
2.Malaysian Studies
3.Moral Studies/Islamic Studies
I don't have to take those subjects because I have passed them in SPM and STPM.

They will give me a free notebook too,lol not that bad right?I am still working till next Saturday.For your information,I should end my job on yesterday which was Saturday but my boss asked me to help her to work for one more week.So I agree to do her a favour.Haha Ain't I a good hearted person?:D

I checked for their official page on Facebook too.Kolej Aman And viewing the pictures there.Only then I knew that they have orientation also.-.- Can I just skip it? I must find an excise for not attending the orientation.

I am kinda scared now.I don't know why.I am afraid that I can't get along with my classmates since some of them are younger than me.And I am scared for the guys.I seriously hope there is no Ah Beng(according to wikipedia,Ah Beng refer to young Chinese man or teenager who lacks cultural refinement or indulges in criminal activity or is involved in brawls or arguments out of disagreements with other people.)Well maybe I'm a bit exaggerate but if you knew BP guys well,then you will agree with me.

Anyway, studies is the only thing I need to care about and focus on.I don't wanna to be like before.I set a target to myself,

I WANT TO BE THE FIRST IN MY CLASS!

I miss my friends

2011-05-13T23:55:00.000-07:00

A nice song.Reminded me of all of you :)

不常联络，却更紧握

It's been some time since we leaved school, we have our own busy life.

I missed the time when we played around,hanging out,gossiping,studying and even play truant together :p

It's so Memorable,Simple and Pure.

Nothing can beat up your school time's friends.That's so true.When you're involving with the society,you will know it's hard to have some good friends that you can trust.Sign.Reality.

~~I HATE GROWING UP~~

Renovation's done and Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-10T07:33:00.000-07:00

I should blog about this earlier but due to my lazyness as always.Haha

So my house's renovation is done and my dad's holding a party on 1st May which is Labour Day too.
We were so DAMN BUSY CLEANING THE WHOLE HOUSE just for the party.Cause my relatives would come to my house not possible that we leaved my house messy like that right?LOL.
On the way cleaning

my room is full of dust and minicreature

mom is busy cooking

my dad was sleeping =.=

This teddy bear was a gift by my friends when i was 13 :D

Pandan cake

All the mama's here.LOL my big aunt

I cherish the time when I am with my family :)

Dedicated to my friend KAY KAY

2011-05-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

I received a shocking news today afternoon by ms. bean.My secondary school classmate for three years Kay Shing has been verified to have lymphatic cancer at safe stage3.I was shocked when I knew this from Asther.She did post about she had cancer on Facebook at 30thApril.But I didn't know about this though I am always on Facebook!I did notice that she updated her status quite frequently but I just thought that she's some flu or any other kind of normal disease.I NEVER THOUGHT THAT IT COULD BE SUCH A SERIOUS DISEASE!
When I was home,I quickly switched on my computer and went to her page.She's starting to do chemotherapy in Melacca Mahkota Hospital and need to take many different kind of pills to control her illness. :( But fortunately,she is pretty positive to overcome all these.She doesn't even sound like she's having cancer.She's one the strongest girl I ever know,no matter during the school days or now,a young girl who's fighting against cancer positively.
I seriously hope that she will be alright and pull it through.We will pray for you.God Bless Kay Shing.

2011-04-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Things is always easier said than done.I thought I could get over it and shows everyone I'm really fine with my decision.Until I faced the situation.I met these few random uncles and aunties when I was with my parents.You know those adults always like to ask about your kids like How old are you?What are you doing?Are you a student and blah blah.I was fine with that in the past.I was usually answered them,Yeah I am still studying.or yeah I am a student.But now I find them Annoying.I have to change my answer to Nope,I have finished school and currently looking for a job.ARGHHHHHH!!!DO YOU KNOW THAT FEELING?? I don't know how to describe it,but it's certainly a feeling that will drift you apart. I met this uncle today,one of my dad's old friend.He asked about me casually.

Uncle:Are the two girls your daughters?(my sis is besides me)
Dad: Yes,they are.
Uncle: Are they still studying?
Dad: This one is studying in SDBL(referring to my sis), and this one (pointing me) has finished school and started working already.
Uncle:Oh,is she just graduated from Uni?
Me:Yeah, as if -.-(thoughts inside my mind)
Dad: No...................Well I didn't heard the rest of the part I quickly walked away.
I so wanna to hide myself into a hole.Like seriously! You guys won't understand this feeling T__T
I was so......I don't know the exact word but more to Embarrassing I think. Don't be misunderstood, start working at this age like me is not a bad thing.But they would be like "Surprising",probably they had this wrong inception of me that "I am good in study",so they would be like freaked out,like all my relatives did, if they knew that I failed in my STPM..Sigh.There's no If I knew this earlier, I would blah blah thing in this world.
I have no choice but just moving on.

So I will leave my job in the end of this month.And I will be JOBLESS in the coming May! Too much things have to settle down and and deal with.I hope I would be alright.

Till then.

1.学会把亲情放在第一位,把友情放在第二位,把爱情放在够不到的位置

2.学会不和父母顶嘴,学会为了维护友谊让步

3.学会不想着依赖别人,做好自己,让别人依赖你

4.学会认清自己,不是很好,也不算坏,不把头扬的很高,也不拿眼睛盯别人的脚

5.学会把喜欢的人放在心底,默默的喜欢,有种情不需要张扬

6.学会不为了自己喜欢的人和别人争论,或许你并不了解他

7.学会口是心非,看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起,请祝福

8.学会独自一个人承受一些事,一个人守着一些秘密

9.学会适当减肥,不要过度,为了某些人,坚持

10.学会去关心家人,朋友,不要以为他们不会离开我们,就不在意

11.学会交际,和所有的人搞好关系,踏入社会,面对的人会更多

12.学会掩饰忧伤,对别人笑,要哭,躲被窝里

13.学会成熟处事,即使是装出来的

14.学会在特殊的节日,给别人一个小小的惊喜,感动一个人很简单,让她（他）知道你心中有她（他）的位置

15.学会不相信童话故事,永远记得仙杜瑞拉有的水晶鞋是你没有的

16.学会必要的欺骗,不要说你诚实,埋没了善良更可恶

17.学会为自己的人生做好打算,自己争取来的更值得珍惜

18.学会不计较,忘记一些不愉快,也许你会更快乐

19.学会无条件付出,想想父母,你会释然

20.学会写日记,我们的人生并不是很长,把它记下足可以让你重拾记忆

好好过日子,终会长大,学会不让爱我们的人对我们失望

拿得起,放得下,该放手的时候,不要拖泥带水,告诉自己,学会自爱,也会活得很好

我又学会了多少样呢?

沉淀，释怀，未来，重新出发

2011-04-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

哈哈..刚本来只是闲着没事做然后想看一下blog有没有新的update

谁知道，看到我之前一片很down的post竟然有人回复！！OMG!i was shocked coz i never thought would anybody "read" my blog(besides yivon lim haha)and even bother to leave comment on it.hahaha

尤其是你啊，李小豆同学（不用感到害臊啦 XD) 当然还有亲爱的林君君同学和表妹~本来想回复大家的，可是想想还是决定写一篇长点的post来解答你们的问题和补充一下~

那个晚上，应该是我人生中最down的一天。那天妈妈问我要不要去问下去mmu读好不好之类的。在答应妈妈之前其实内心挣扎了一下，心想万一神叫我去做工怎么办？后来觉得应该不会这么倒霉才对。你们一定会觉得我很傻(或很笨?),自己的前途干吗任"神"宰割,其实不是的。我已说明我的来意，那位“娘娘”说的第一句话就是，在本地（她说的本地是指bp)读不好吗？为什么要跑到马六甲？当下，我已心知不妙，但也不能起身掉头就走吧？所以只好硬着头皮把话听完~接着，她又说了一个重点。她说我的心已不在这里了，一心想去看外面的世界。这点我完全同意。-.- 我早在考完spm后就想去看外面的花花世界了。也许我在KL有很多美好的回忆，所以一直想找机会来这里生活。人算不如天算，算来算去还是得呆在这小小的BP。她还说如果我去那儿的话，会很辛苦，可能撑不到半年就回来了。跟我妈说的一样,她不看好我会顺利毕业.=.=她也说了我很多个性上的缺点,也都说中了。

总而言之，我去mmu已经是不可能了。因为被说得好像死路一条。说真的，在当下有想哭的冲动。因为我完全没想过这样的答案。我不能接受。。真的。。我压根儿没料到我会那么早踏入社会，从小，我对自己的设想是，中学毕业后进入college然后大学。我的理念是：这样的人生才算圆满也应该是我需走的路。坦白说，我曾经有那么一点点的，也不算是轻视，但就是觉得那些早早出来工作没有文凭的人和我不是一国的，我们不可能会有共同话题，不可能成为好友，也许我太势利眼了？不能完全怪我会有这种想法！我大多数的朋友都以学业为重，都能算是精英分子，就是那种好学生型的。直到我去当兵，才知道原来我一直以来一位不能“结交”的朋友都是很棒的一群人！有点离题了，哈哈~但这就是为什么我这么不能接受现在这个局面。因为这从不在我的人生规划里头，应该说是憧憬才对。但已走到这一步了，应该往前看对吗？

当晚我凌晨两点才逼自己睡觉，因为隔天必须上班。我这人也很奇怪，明明前一晚哭得要生要死，但睡了一觉我就想通了，也看开了。天无绝人之路，虽然老套但很适合永在我身上。所以我也渐渐接受了我的命运，不再怨天尤人，毕竟这是自己恕由自取，怨得了谁？况且我不是就此不读书了，只是慢点而已。我会在这里先读business的课程，然后一边工作，就是所谓的半工半读。可能会申请open university，好像是在parit raja我也不确定。或者国安。我整个人有点颤抖，呃。。呃。。我从没正眼瞧过国安张什么样子，虽然在我家附近而已。-.- 你看，命运是不是作弄人？往往你最没料到的事情就会发生在你身上~算了，反正就是这样了，也不想多说什么。可能有些人会说这些文凭没有用，没水准，好我承认，我曾经是这一群人-.-~ 但至少比我现在stpm文凭而且还两科不及格强吧？我也想进修英文，可能去剑桥与中心读或其他的中心，我也不确定。啊！！我真的是很不了解batu哪里是可以进修的！！

这样的结局是我妈早在两个月前就跟我提过了。但我只是拼命摇头，死都要去mmu。妈妈的话我不听，只好叫神来跟我说。>< 其实，我妈反对我去外面读书还有一个原因，她怕我思想不成熟又容易相信别人（我很好骗），抵挡不住外面的诱惑,会误入歧途。关于这点，你们自己判断。所谓当局者迷，旁观者清。不能否认的是，我是一个感情用事的人，我非常不理智。举个例子，我去购物时，明明没打算买一些东西但就是忍不住！哈哈~所以啊~还是不冒这个险吧~

先改掉自己的个性，在社会打滚几年，磨练自己。其实我也觉得如果现在去mmu,四年后毕业已经24岁了，而且没有工作经验。在bp工作刚开始薪水RM1800,还要还ptptn三十几四十千的贷款。好累啊！而我现在工作的话，低薪Rm1200,不必欠债。有升职加薪的机会，也算不错了吧？至少我是自己养活自己，赚的是血汗钱。还有，我父母也轻松一点了，毕竟已年过半百，我是长女应该体谅他们。我因为不能去上大学而哭得死去活来，但他们何尝不难过呢？谁家父母不希望自己的儿女大学毕业，让他们脸上沾光？虽然我考成这样，但他们还是爱我的。我爸还是每天都载我去工作；我妈还是每天都帮我洗衣煮饭。我觉得我很令他们丢脸，我感到很抱歉。所以我应该弥补过错。Make them feel proud of me like what I have done back to primary school time.至于读书方面，虽然可能体会不到学生生涯了，但条条大路通罗马，半工半读也能创找出一个春天？哈哈！真佩服自己的过分乐观！也只有这样想，我才会好过一些。还有还有，身边有钱就能做我想要做的事 :) 如我一直渴望的旅行和买好多好多的化妆品 xD。

沉淀自己，不再耿耿于怀，思考未来，重新出发。不管未来如何，始终有家人和朋友们的陪伴与鼓励不是吗？我还是幸运的那个 =)

2011-04-13T06:33:00.001-07:00

女：他好笨，一直不知道她喜欢着他。

男：他其实不笨。他只是偶尔有些错乱，不知怎么办才好。
但他其实也很笨，因为他把有些事情从另外一个角度来分析，但其实一切都很简单。
他其实很苯，因为他不懂得珍惜。
他实在是笨，因为他喜欢假装扮不懂。
他的确很笨，因为她为他做了这么多事，他却依然冷淡。
他实在是最笨，因为他可以像是不知道，她还喜欢着他。

但
他苏醒了
不再笨了
他希望
她能在给他一次机会说清楚
能够吗？

I copied this from someone's post on Facebook xD LOL

我不是大学生

2011-04-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

我不是大学生，而且我永远也不可能成为其中一个。

至少大学毕业，这个我抱持着多年，应该是说打从我知道什么叫做大学的时候所贯彻的信仰，将要打破了。
我，赖欣恬，永远永远都无法体验象牙塔生涯。我还真的难以置信，“我不是大学生耶！” “我中六毕业而以哦！“ 以前的我根本不可能觉得我会变成这个样子，但是，我就是命溅，没有那个命！怪我自己蠢，傻，白痴！不懂得珍惜！我很想去死，可是怕痛又舍不得朋友和家人。
不甘心又如何？叫我认命？好吧，我正在努力尝试。唯一让我稍微安慰一点的是，爸妈不必这么辛苦。就当一次孝顺的女儿吧~
我看不起自己，落得今天这样的下场。哭也没用，但是眼泪拼命往下掉。被说得如此不堪？虽然有些说进心坎里，但也不至于那么糟吧？最介意的一句是，“没天分”。天晓得没天分的我怎么读精英班？怎么拿七个A? （风光时期只在小学，中学就一落千丈）也许我的天分在那时就一点一滴的消失。
妈妈说，现在做工，年底可以和阿姨表妹们出国玩。但是啊..我的人生呢？我的未来呢？
假如能重来，我希望我没选择f6,
假如能重来，我希望我能好好读书，不要沉迷于网络和无谓的"网恋”（seriously u made my life HELL)
假如能重来，希望我今晚没有吃饱没事做跑去占神问卦，就不会有现在这篇post.

Update of me

2011-03-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

  My last post that written by me(not some copy&paste work) was like two months ago which was about Chinese New Year.Haha.I am not a productive blogger but who cares.I don't think anyone would eager for my lame post.Haha.So yeah it's been one month after I got my STPM result.And yeah I've learnt another lesson.Duh don't wanna talk about it.It will only made me feel down.
  So these few past weeks I've been thinking so so so much stuff about my future.And my plan keep changing.To make it short, I have switched my ideal course from Business,Communication(Advertising/Public Relation/Journalism),Law,and my final decision is Foundation of Management in MMU.This is my FINAL DECISION NO MORE CHANGING AND DRAMA,i guess? -.- I feel I am so aimless and useless :( I just hope this path i choose won't screw me up.I have no more back up to let me fall down.Again.Sigh :(
  I am working as a tutor.Work is always BORED. If everything goes smoothly,I think I will enroll the intake of foundation course in June. Seriously, I am kinda embarrassing I still to do foundation with the age of 20.And I believe majority of my classmates are fresh and younger teens like 18 only!GOSH 2 years younger than me!I care about aging stuff. I am their so-called a elder sis to them.I hate being treating the eldest one.I might look mature of my appearance but trust me if you know me you would find it how childish I am.Not gonna lie but I just discover this not long time ago after some "talks" with my mom. I hate to admit this but only my mom knows me well.
  About time to sleep now.Bye,will update whenever I feel like it ;)

Another copy&paste post about Scorpio :P

2011-03-21T05:16:00.001-07:00

天蝎座性格最精确的解析

一、朋友多& 孤独

“ 有很多的朋友，可是 “ 看似朋友很多，知心的却没有几个 。 ”——这句话很深刻的形容了天蝎。

天蝎很能说话，他们跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题，比如今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥；今年服饰的流行趋势之类的…… 可是注意了，他们都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事——随便他们跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。关于自己的事，他们几乎是不说的，就算说，也是说一些跟自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解天蝎，他们便会很自然的把话题给扯开。

天蝎很自信，同时他们又很没有安全感。这是天蝎特有的矛盾。他们喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露——对于天蝎来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄，这样就失去了一定的优势。

当天蝎感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或一个人郁闷着。天蝎也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切也不愿被别人抓住自己的把柄。所以，久而久之也就养成了习惯。

天蝎基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他们又总是很忧伤。天蝎总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩，但他们不会让别人发现。他们怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以天蝎很神经质、精神脆弱、容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西。

一般来说天蝎的孩子都很早熟。他们对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。天蝎并不是故意要掩饰自己——上面说过，这已经是一种习惯了。可是在外人看来，他们便成了虚伪的人。

二、花心& 冷酷无情

天蝎是被众人所公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于天蝎的花心，真的不想再说些什么了，解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。

可是说起天蝎，就不得不提感情。天蝎这一生，似乎注定被感情牵绊，跟爱情纠缠一世 。

很多人说天蝎并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：天蝎最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体。天蝎有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，天蝎只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。我想用一句话给天蝎的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂。

至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起……其实天蝎是最平和的星座，可以不发生的冲突，都会尽量避免。天蝎也很少跟人吵架，他们讨厌吵架，若是因为一些生活上的琐碎小事吵架，那么天蝎就在吵完的那一刻就会把这件事给忘了。

倘若天蝎真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话让天蝎实在不能再忍受。这时他们会很鄙视的看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉——有时甚至会不给你留面子地离开。那时恐怕你一辈子也别想再和他们和好——就算有的天蝎碍于面子与你再成为朋友，但是他们对你已经鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的“朋友”关系而已。

三、完美& 简单

天蝎总是在追求着完美。当他们在某一时刻的做法起了争议时，虽然当时内心很跃然，可事后会不断的反思，直到心里想出完美的解决方法后才肯让自己休息。

天蝎也总是喜欢去做一些别人不会、不敢去做的事，他们并不是想显示自己或怎样，或许只是因为好玩。

天蝎的想法通常是很简单很单纯的。当他们做了某件事之后，人们就会认为他们就是那个样子了…… 天蝎会很潇洒的说不被人了解很好，也懒得去解释——因为就算解释也不一定有人会了解，可是内心却非常希望别人能够支持。

天蝎的内心极端的敏感，即便是过了很久，也会记得别人的一句话或一个眼神，因为他们时刻在检讨自己，时刻在追求自身的完美。

在面对这个与自己的理想不相符的世界时，天蝎有太多的无奈，所以他们也总是在逃避。用逃避来面对事情，似乎也成为了天蝎的又一个习惯。不到紧要关头，绝对不会放下自尊。即使在喜欢的人面前，他们也表现得默然，因为他们不知如何去引领这个人进入他们的心里面。他们本来就是内心极其矛盾的人，他们希望自己是完美优秀的，总想把自己最好的一面拿给别人看。

天蝎是非常向往自由的，可是内心也在崇尚着某个方向，天蝎很反复的内心世界在成长的日子里没人能体会。如此一来，天蝎就更矛盾了 …… 在崩溃的边缘，没办法发泄，天蝎只能笑。

天蝎的笑很纯净，天蝎笑起来也很调皮。其实天蝎本来就是个很简单的人，任何的心计都只会弄巧成拙。

四、聪明& 反复无常

天蝎一般都有个聪明的脑袋，跟其他的孩子比起来，天蝎似乎是很有优势的。所以，天蝎在幼年时，一般都很骄傲，有飞扬跋扈、不可一世的态度。

天蝎也自认比别人聪明，他们常常会用自己的标准去要求别人。天蝎凡事都有自己的标准和原则。天蝎没耐心，这是人们所共知的：你自己的事情自己解决，不懂的话去学去想。让他们把话再重复一遍，或许他们还可以保持绅士风度，若要让他们重复第三遍的话……

都说天蝎反复无常。最典型的一个画面就是：当所有的人都在很开心的大笑时，天蝎会突然沉默，然后独自一人走开……明明上一刻还很开心，下一刻就成了一副死鱼脸。

在上面有说到，天蝎经常会被莫名的悲伤笼罩。当这种悲伤排山倒海的压向天蝎时，他们真的会不知所措。不知该如何表达发泄出来，只能自己默默忍受。

天蝎的想法变得很快，总有很多鬼主意。可如果让天蝎一直呆在一个枯燥无聊的环境中，久而久之，天蝎便会失去自身原有的光泽，变得很平庸，没有想法、没有个性。

天蝎的思想也很有弹性，没有绝对的黑白之分。在评断事务时，不会主观地决定善恶黑白。因此，这样使天蝎的想法具有通融性，但这种弹性的思考有时会招致“意见模棱两可”的批评。

天蝎座的人才华横溢，拥有自由的思想和英明的决断力。不喜欢在一处久留，不会义无反顾地投入到某件事中。言语行动通常恰到好处，厌倦单调和枯燥的环境。如果能够利用意志力把自身的多种矛盾因素拧成一股力量，可将自身的优势发挥得淋漓尽致。

天蝎作为风相星座，就如同星相里面讲的那样，做事风风火火随意性大，通常是想到什么就去做什么，然而一段时间后又失去了兴趣……这个可能就是人们通常所说的“三分钟热度”吧。

天蝎是个比任何星座都怕寂寞的星座，天蝎的他（她）不能忍受一个人无聊的打发时间，更不能忍受一个人去吃饭 。

天蝎又是一个忍耐力超强的星座，即使他（她）内心有多么的痛苦，他（她）也不会随便告诉别人，除非是天蝎的他（她）认定了你是值得信赖的，能够帮助他（她）的人，才能知晓他（她）内心深处的一些东西。

天蝎天生就是个矛盾的星座，他（她）通常会以乐天的姿态出现在公众或朋友的面前，给人留下的就是玩世不恭的印象。然而，一旦天蝎一个人的时候，自己内心的秘密才会通过感觉被表达出来。不是说天蝎虚伪，而是天蝎的性格决定了他（她）们的行为。

看了很多星相，也听很多人说过，天蝎就是花心的代名词：天蝎对待爱情就象对待游戏，爱情的游戏，他们百玩不厌，并且花样层出不穷。其实这个观点是非常愚蠢的。 12个星座中我想多少都有一些人是花心的吧？就象社会里也有一部分是坏人，不能这么一概而论。或许说此话的人的运气不好，正巧遇到了个花心的天蝎，可这并能不代表所有天蝎都是花心的！

其实，很大一部分天蝎，对待感情是非常专一的。之所以给人留下“花心”的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的天蝎动真感情。不是天蝎铁石心肠，而是天蝎个性里面天生有一些忧郁与一些潜在的不自信，只是天蝎隐藏的很深入。一旦让天蝎动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，天蝎的天真、率直，外加丰富的表达能力，一定能让你获得很多快乐！

每个天蝎都有一个故事隐藏在心里，而且多数是不堪回首的往事 。

天蝎是个念旧，又或者可以说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座。他（她）的故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的天蝎是脆弱的，也是坚强的。他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当做什么事都没有发生，这些都只是天蝎演给世人看的罢了……等到夜深人静的时候，天蝎内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以用一整夜去回忆之前所发生的点点滴滴；可以一整夜都沉浸在痛苦之中；可以一整夜坐在那里发呆……但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，天蝎马上便会从痛苦中抽身而走——你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的天蝎。

这就是天蝎，拥有双重性格的天蝎，一个在世人面前乐天、快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的天蝎。

我想，接触过天蝎的人都知道，他们是很会搞气氛的星座，只要有天蝎出现的地方就绝对不会缺少快乐。

天蝎是个把快乐带给别人，把悲伤留给自己的星座，请不了解天蝎的人不要再给天蝎扣上“花心”之类的帽子。不过你硬要扣也无所谓～花心就花心，这就是天蝎——自信、乐天、率直、忧郁。

天蝎的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切。

有人说我们花心，那只是我们没有真正的爱。当天蝎爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的。因为我们太敏感。

假如天蝎爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那么我相信他（她）永远都不会再爱了。当爱给过了一个人，他（她）便再没有能力再付出。

其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实有时连我们自己都不懂自己。我们很会伪装、很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感。

天蝎的爱，有谁能够真正理解。

Kinship&Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-15T05:22:00.000-08:00

Here comes my post about Chinese New Year.Wow finally!I am a huge procrastinator i know!I try my best to fart out one post about CNY cause it's so worth it to write out.And CNY isn't over yet there is still two more days ;) Well I pretty like this year of celebration.On the first day of CNY,I went to my grandparents' house like every year we did.But we didn't feel any "new year" mood we didn't know why.Haha.Maybe it was because the first day of new year was usually boring.Not only me felt that kind of feeling but also my bro and sis.We were like"Wow so fast a year had past!".LOL.In my grandparents' house,we were always felt awkward and uneasy cause they are a huge families and we didn't really talk about each other.So what we could do is sit there watching television,eating tit-bits and waiting for angpau XD.Haha.Surprisingly,there was one blonde guy appeared while we were there.Is he hot?Well to me he is average not that hot but not that bad though.Hahaha.He was my so-called cousin's (no blood-related) university classmate in Perth.I guessed only cause i stalked him on facebook XD.You know the feeling when you know some people for years maybe since childhood but you guys NEVER talked.Yeah this happened to me among all my "counsins" -.- But after years by,we can handle this situation well.It needs some experience.Haha.

The look of first day :)

Nothing special on the first day of new year,moving on to the second day. We were excited on this day cause we were going to KL!We went to KL on the second or third day of new year almost year since i was a baby.Unless they weren't in Malaysia like last year.Most of my mom's side families were living there.This year we stayed in a resort which is called Pullman,Lakeside in Putrajaya(about 40 minutes from KL).It was a beautiful place cause there was a lakeside over there and it was a good place for playing hide-and seek too.It was so big the different buildings there kinda confusing us.I think pictures can best describe the stories

I gone through :)

Below are the pictures before heading to Putrajaya

In the car :D

Took a picture of myself :)

Mom gave us a peach :D

LOL

I never knew this bridge before.It's kinda like the bridge in Pulau Pinang but smaller size.

The room of the resort

My bro Lye Ren Kui

My sis Sin Ling

Toilet

Bathroom

Beautiful scenery took from the lakeside

What the hell was sin ling doing? She ruined this pic -.-

They rode bicycle :D

We played snooker :P

His name is Remy :P

Baby Martin :D

Khayak :D

My baby nephew Hans Eustace.I think he will a little bit different when i see him next time :(

Yuri :)

The two pictures of me took with two white boys were taken by my cousin So Yii when we intended to go back to our room after lunch.We saw these two French boys were playing football.The younger brother Martin chased his brother Remy when he kicked the ball.We were like" OMG they are so cute!!!"Hahaha.Then we went to ask the elder brother can we took photo with your brother?He said yeah so we caught that boy for taking picture.I did ask him where do they from.And he answered me Franch.French guys are hot huh :p When we took the photo with that two French boys,some of my relatives came cause they were going back to their room.Then this one of my cousin,she talked with Remy in French!I was like O_O,she could speak French!How cool!I want to learn French too!haha

My aunt（小姨）arranged an apartment for the young ladies including me.So we stayed in one room with 8 cute girls.Haha.We enjoyed the time very much.Every morning,we went downstairs for breakfast then played with the facilities they provided like Wii room,riding bicycle,snooker,swimming pool,gym,sauna and etc.Those were the precious memory for me :) I wanna to thank my aunt for arranging everything and settle it well :)

For more pictures please click Pullman Lakeside

This was one of the best new year I have.When I'm growing older,I'm more understand the meaning and importance of kinship to us.I wish that we could have another family trip in the time coming soon with ALL the family members attend no matter they are from KL,Melaka,Johor(my family :p),Muar or even overseas like USA.I wish I could actually meet three of my cousins who raised in LA one day :) Family and relatives are unique,you should try to get to know them and make them to be one of your close friends.In my generation,I am the eldest among all the young ladies.haha.So I am thinking I should be more concern for them and giving advice if they met any kind of problems.Well it's not like i don't have any problems of myself at all in fact I have lots of problems too.But I should be more be mature and is able to handle their little girls' questions.LOL I am just thinking anyway :D

Cherish the moments when your with your families :)

I will update soon(i really hope i could!) See ya! =)

我是天蝎座

2011-02-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

天蝎的本质：执著
不要怀疑了，天蝎的一切特性，都源自其执著，对自己的目标的追逐，对自己信念的坚定，对自己的路的坚持，都源于他的本性——执著！很少有人比蝎子更痴情，那也是蝎子对自己爱情的执著。这个本质对于蝎子来说是其成功的一个要素，不过一旦一个蝎子被野心所控制，那么就会对整个世界造成影响。
　　因为太过于执著，所以天蝎无论是怎么样的，都会表现出过激的反应，对于在自己目标上的障碍，他们会不留情的去铲除。所以对于蝎子来说，冷酷与其说是本质，不如说是天蝎所常的一个手段，用冷酷来保护自己，是一个蝎子最基本的办法！这个在后边解释！再说说城府，很多人在提起天蝎的时候都会说这个星座的人城府很深！其实不然，天蝎只是对于事物的看法不那么容易表现出来，我们宁可把自己的感觉用行动表现出来，也不习惯用言语表达，所以给人以阴沉的感觉。
　　由于对自己信念的执著，所以天蝎对自己所做的一切都是一个投入，一种全身心的投入，这个优点是其他星座所没有的，所以天蝎做事情一般都会成功，因为他们的投入。不过天蝎并不是很在意结果，他们在意的只是过程中自己的投入，只要他们想做的，就从来不想让自己留下遗憾，所以结果如何，对于蝎子来说不是最重要的，重要的，是他们尽了全力。所以蝎子都很喜欢这个感觉，无论是做什么，那怕是报复……
（关于“执著”这点，不置可否，“执著”只可以说是中性词，可以说是坚持不懈，同样也可以理解为倔强、死脑筋，我似乎偏向于后者。其次关于信念目标这些太大太空的东西，我说不太好，但关于蝎子喜欢“走自己的路让别人说去”，这点似乎说的恰如其分，至于感情方面，这种说不清道不明的东西，恐怕只有自己心里知道，不说了。最后关于蝎子“冷酷”和“城府”，对于我来讲，我“冷”是缘于不自信，缘于对自己表达能力的不自信，决非耍酷，更不是“有城府”，在这点上说得很符合。）
　　天蝎的共同特点：冷静
　　这个是所有天蝎的特点！在任何事情里，天蝎都喜欢用冷眼看，用自己的理解去分析，从自己的这个方面来判断对自己的影响，天蝎所信奉的是：事不关己！高高挂起！这个也是你不去招惹蝎子，蝎子很少主动去招惹你一样！
（呵呵，我没它说得那么高深，什么“用自己的理解去分析”，更没它说的那么可怕，但别招惹我确实不假。）
　　所有的天蝎都孤独
　　没有一个蝎子不孤独的，而且他们不害怕孤独，反而可以去享受孤独的滋味。蝎子每过一段时间都要去自己单独的呆一会，他们这个时候会反省自己以前一段时间里所做的一切对于自己现在来说是对还是错误的！不过，他们并不渴望孤独，相反，他们他们渴望的是有人可以把他从孤独里带出来，所以他们会异常的珍惜他们的朋友和爱人，因为只有和真的朋友在一起的时候蝎子才不会感到孤独，因为他们投入的特点，所以蝎子都会十分的厌恶背叛和欺骗！他们不会去背叛和欺骗自己的朋友，同样，他们也同样的要求自己的朋友和爱人不可以背叛自己，欺骗自己。
（是不是所有的蝎子都孤独，我不知道，但我知道我确实很孤独，圈子小，朋友少，有些事不方便和父母说，更少有信得过的朋友能直言肺腑，所以孤独一说，确实很在理。至于“厌恶背叛和欺骗”，我想常人都会这么做，只是蝎子更明显而已罢了。）
　　天蝎的字典只有对和错
　　在天蝎的字典里，只有对和错两个选择。在人群里，天蝎的分类大概是最简单的，一个是与自己有关的人，一个是与自己没关的人，在与自己有关的人里边，只有朋友和敌人的分类！很多书都说蝎子是一个水与火的结合，是一个两个极端的结合，没错，的确是这个样子，天蝎的世界是最简单的，因为在他们的世界里，除了对，就是错，没有第三条路。这个观点体现在所有的蝎子身上！
（我有这么极端？！）
　　天蝎致命的弱点－感情：
　　蝎子并不是人们通常所说的那个样子，是一个冷血动物，他们的冷酷只是他们的一个伪装。一个保护自己脆弱的心的伪装，蝎子不是象大家想象的那样坚强，他们的投入有一个最致命的弱点。大家都知道期望越大，失望越大的意思，所以，蝎子通常不把自己的感情投入到一个人身上，所以他们用冷酷来吓退自己不感兴趣的人。对于蝎子的报复的，很多人都提起过，说到感情不可以不说天蝎为什么要那么样的报复曾经“对不起”他的人，如果你从上边看到这里，那么你应该可以明白，为什么蝎子会在报复的时候那么的狠毒！
　　对于蝎子而言，感情是专一的，是真诚的，蝎子可以无视别人对你的看法，只要他认为你是他的一个朋友，你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，只要你对蝎子是真诚的，那么你就是他的朋友。不过请注意，蝎子是会在一些小事情上来感觉到你对他的感情是否是真诚的，不要以为你可以欺骗蝎子，除非你可以做到滴水不漏，在任何事情上都防备蝎子！否则，你会先尝到蝎尾的毒针！

这是我从十二星座copy的~我觉得以上说得都好准哦!haha

See If It's True Or Not(must read this!)

2011-02-02T05:26:00.000-08:00

If the picture is too small click this picture

Plug in your birthday and see what this chart says about you.

The suits

Hearts live through emotions and relationships. These are the children of the deck, often maintaining a youthful exuberance even into later years. The positive Heart is friendly and affectionate; the negative Heart is self-indulgent or flirtatious. Hearts excel in people-oriented careers. They make good nurses, teachers and counselors, as well as artists and musicians.

Clubs are creative and experience life through talking and learning. As the students of the deck, Clubs are curious, always thinking, and love to talk, read and teach. The positive Club is brilliant and well-informed; the negative Club can be a dishonest know-it-all. Great careers for Clubs include teaching, writing, law and journalism.

Diamonds are on the planet to clarify values. Diamonds like to spend money and like nice things. As the adults of the deck, Diamonds can’t stand being told what to do. Diamonds on a positive path are generous and philanthropic. The negative-minded Diamond can be greedy or miserly. Careers for the diamond person include banking, investing, politics, retail or merchandising, producing and big-business.

Spades are confident, strong-willed and wise. Even when they are young, Spades will often act more mature than their age. These are the workers of the deck. Spades are more interested in doing their jobs well than talking about them or becoming too emotionally involved with others. Spades can be stubborn and don’t like it when others try to control them. Spades find satisfaction in careers in construction (building), broadcasting and health care. And, as the symbol of “transformation,” Spades can also be successful in industries that deal with death or dying, and mysticism.

The numbers

The “odd” (active) numbers represent a person who is restless, on the go, and thrives on change.The “even” (receptive) numbers are balanced and logical, attracting things andpeople to them.

Ace (One) is ambitious, active and driven. You are a self-starter who is excited to experience all that life has to offer. As a “One,” you may sometimes appear self-centered.

Two is sensitive, logical and comfortable in partnerships because you enjoy having someone to talk to, or bounce ideas off of. Avoid being insincere or becoming too dependent on the opinions of others.

Three is curious, restless and enjoys trying new things. You are extremely creative, so channel your gifts in a positive way to avoid worry and indecision.

Four is fortunate, organized and efficient. You are a hard-worker and good at bringing people and plans together. Avoid stubbornness or being small-minded.

Five is adventurous, restless, and hates routine or anything that limits your freedom. As a “people person,” you are comfortable around all kinds of personalities. Learn to commit.

Six is easygoing, peaceful and fair. You prefer to avoid confrontation, but won’t hesitate to stand up for what you believe in. Avoid stubbornness or falling into a rut.

Seven is the most mystical of all numbers. You have a mental sharpness that, when combined with your intuition (hunches), will serve you well. Have faith that you are being guided. Avoid being indifferent or skeptical.

Eight is the number of power and abundance. You enjoy attention and have special talents in the area of your suit (Hearts — charm; Clubs — knowledge; Diamonds — leadership; Spades — wisdom). Avoid power struggles.

Nine is intelligent and happiest when you give in and are willing to let go. Beware of being too overbearing, stingy or bullying.

10 is ambitious, capable and confident. You like to do things in a big way and may be obsessive or take on too much responsibility.

The “faces” are natural leaders who need to be respected. Even the Jacks, who may be less mature and serious than the King and Queen, need their talents to be recognized.

Jack is clever and playful. This youngest member of the royal family is creative and charming. There may be a tendency to stretch the truth or avoid responsibility.

Queen expresses power and leadership with compassion. Just as powerful as a King, you enjoy pleasing and taking care of others. Beware of being too demanding.

King is a natural leader. Authoritative, powerful, and wise, you prefer to do things your own way. Use caution when it comes to being too pushy or dismissive of others.

Joker is the wild card! A sneaky trickster who can take on the personality of any card in the deck, but most often acts like a Jack. Dec. 31 is the only day of the year that’s linked to the Joker. People born on this day cannot be read using this system.

Happy Chinese New Year's Eve Everyone :)

I found this in my tumblr,I think it's fun and kinda accurate what it said about me..Haha

Comment below to tell me that if it's accurate on you.:)

Christmas and have fun with cousins

2010-12-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

I just came back from KL today.Had a great time with my cousins and also my family.Also we had done lots of shopping, it's a must when we come to KL.haha.I love spending time in KL,cause all the things we normally would do are eating,playing,shopping,movie,chatting(or you can call it gossiping xD), gambling sometimes(LOL) and playing badminton for free.haha.I enjoyed the time when i was in KL so much.I wish i could stay here longer though.We went there on 24th December,which is also my mom's birthday ^^ We went to Pavilion this was the first time i went there lol.It's beautiful and i love the decoration for Christmas.
We sat in the Loaf Bakery for for counting down.My dad told me the Loaf is a bakery owned by our previous prime minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir.The bakery in Pavilion is a branch and there is even a bistro where you can get hot food and afternoon tea.I think the price of the breads are kinda expensive.Well i am not the one who pay for this so i don't know about the price.LOL.We met our relatives in Loaf.They stayed in a hotel which is near to Pavilion for holidays although they live in KL haha.

Can't see their face.haha

So yii and me :)

These two crazy foreigners especially the guy.He kept spraying at people.LOL

They are crazy huh?

From left: Eunice,Eugenia,So Hui,So Kee and Chern Yee ^.^

Pavilion

Fahrenheit a shopping mall

We ate Golden Apple haha :)

Cutie little cousin Hans Eustace.His name is kinda long.lol

We went to Sunway Pyramid for ice-skating and shopping.This was also the first time i went there.-.-Omg i should come to here earlier i never came here before because it's kinda far from my cousin's house.It's a nice place for shopping.Many branded stuff and also some cheaper stuff.I must go there next time!No more One-U haha!They all went to ice-skating while so yii and me went shopping.Then, we had our dinner in Full House.it's so pretty the environment all white in colour.

The inside of Full House

^_^

Last Day Last Subject

2010-12-14T07:27:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow will be my last paper which is BM1
Last day to wear my school uniform
My last day of being a F6 student
Well I don't have any feeling right now about the exam or last day to meet my friends
I just thought that I should post something here cause I have been neglecting my blog for long time
I will be going to a camp on 17th to 20th Dec with yivon,sher yan,xiao xuan and yi hong
But I never expected that I would be arrange in Group 2
Gahh!!I hate it!My other friends are in Group5,15,19 and 20.
Anyway I just hope that this camp would be fun or my friends would kill me I guess -_-
Cause I am the one who persuade them to join this camp lol
Then I would be going to KL on 23rd with family haha
I missed KL so much especially the shopping mall there :D
I need some distractions seriously
To help me forget all those shits
I don't want to tell anymore further now
Cause I am scared I wouldn't stop if once I start to write about it haha
So I will stop here
Will continue next time when I have the time and mood

Last but not least,I want to say something here

FUCK LOVE
_|_(middle finger)
LOL

错的人-萧亚轩

2010-11-29T06:03:00.005-08:00

明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真正的可笑
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身
可能在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨明知道你是錯的人明知道這不是緣分但我相信有點可能

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3k4Im03j3fs

爱上这首歌，也喜欢它的歌词

BIASED

2010-10-30T07:16:00.000-07:00

I am so pissed of my parents and my bro especially! We were supposed to go to the mall after we had dinner outside, but just because of my brother we ended up stayed at home! My bro said he didn't wanna go to the mall so my mom asked my dad to fetch him home first(-.-).But when we almost reached home, my mom changed her mind she said it's getting late the shop was closed.So we went home.WTF??!!

First, why is it my parents have to listen to my brother?He could just follow us to go shopping and it's just for 2 hours the most to be there.I was not asking him to be there 12 hours!Why can't he just accompany my mom to go shopping? Why is it everytime we have to listen to him as if he is the boss in the house!

It is not that i am being childish that jealous of my brother,same thing repeating many times and many years,everybody can tell that my parents dote him so much.Why can't they just be fair? I feel like i am their adopted daughter sometimes :( I am so sad :'( He is the only son in the family but SO WHAT? Can you guarantee that he will take care of you when you are old?He will give you money when he works? I am just the extra in the family.It would be enough that my parents have my sis and my brother. I am just good for nothing, so they dislike me :(

Enough.I will leave this house soon whatever.I don't it give a shit! Oh well please don't get me wrong,I am not gonna run away from house cause i don't have anywhere to go lol i am just kidding.

I was supposed to post about my birthday but i don't have any mood right now.So next time probably.
Bye

Party and update

2010-10-15T04:25:00.000-07:00

Hey!I haven't been blogging for many weeks.I am always lazy to blogging as there is nothing interesting to blog about.Now the most important thing for me is my STPM exam which falls on 23rd Nov.It is almost left one more month for me.Whoa!I am so excited I can't wait to leave this fucking school!! And you know what,even though I haven't finished my exam but I have already worried about what should I do after exam cause it is gonna be a long long break for me.5 months at least!So I wanna make good use of this time to save up!!I wanna travelling!LOL.But I have no idea what kind of work could I find.-.- (Pray hard, I wanna get a good job with good paid,haha)

10.10.2010 (such a perfect date)
I went to a party for celebrating my dad's side godfather's 60 years wedding ceremony.How nice.I thought it was just some kinda family gathering but when I reached there,Whoa! It was like some party that you would see in drama like those damn rich people's party.And the food OMG! I never seen such a delicious and luxury buffet!We were drooling there.The party was just awesome :) Imagined if you and your parter been together for 60 years,such a blissful thing you would ever ask from god.

the top view from the house

if this was my house...

sushi :D

I am lazy typing anymore.Will be blogging next time when I have the mood :D

Friends Would Never Leave You

2010-09-14T23:04:00.000-07:00

Had a great time with my beloved friends last few days,I am really appreciate it so much.And I went to cinema to watch the movie Resident Evil: After Life.Well it's not that worth it to watch,but anyway I was really bored at home so I just went to watch a movie even I was watching alone!Yeah,I was watching alone,for the very first time.Haha.Actually I went to the mall with my brother and his friends.But my brother was like,"Do I even know you?"

He didn't want to sit in the same row with me,he and his friends were sitting in my behind even beside me still got some seats.= = Whatever! I hate him.hahaha.After that,I went to Bean Talk with asther.

I was bored while waiting for asther :)

We went to Penth House and took some pictures.haha

We knew each other since primary school

I love my editing skill :D

I love you all =D

Lonely Friday Night

2010-09-10T08:48:00.000-07:00

I ended up staying at home

Blogging here

I'm just able to on-line

Due to the fucking net

Wasting my two hours time

I know I'm emo-ing now

Especially missing someone like hell

I don't know what could I do now

Viewing some random clothes on net

Just making me more depressed

I gotta lose some weight again

More and more and more

To make me feel better

To make everyone feel better

To make him feel better

I think I am insane now

But whatever shit it is

I don't give it a damn

I know I am rude

Bur I don't think I should be manner here

This is the place for me write whatever shit I want

So stay tuned guys

Xoxo

2010-09-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

Hey guys..I am so bored right now..Nope I should say I am so bored the whole week.So what I have done in my holidays?Telling you I do nothing except eating,sleeping and on-line maybe a little studying.Failed I know right.Forget about it.I'll start studying my books seriously next week,okay I promise.(hopefully xD)

So some of my friends are coming back today or even earlier.Especially you Yvonne Lim.I know you miss me a lot.LOL.By the way,I kinda addicted to Eminem's song.I don't care if his song are full of Fxxx words so what I like it.And I found it if your pissed by someone or anything,his songs can just release your anger.

Tonight might be hanging out with my dearest friends.=D
That's it for today,thanks for reading.
Bye Xoxo

Eminem - Not afraid Lyrics

2010-09-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

My wish list

2010-09-08T03:03:00.000-07:00

I was just editing my blog.I have always wanna make it look nicer but I gotta admit that I don't have any talent which is a sad thing.Whatever here comes my blog.

So I have holidays for 2 weeks and today is the 3rd day,pretty bored though.I just stay at home doing nothing.I have a trial exam right after school reopen so I can't get a part-time job unlike my brother.He's taking a part-time job in Mac-Donald.LOL.This is his first part-time job for his 16 years life xD.At least he can get about over RM300 which is pretty much to me.I really need some cash I have lots of thing to do which I can't accomplish it if I don't have enough money.

Wish List

1. Travelling in overseas

I never go to any other country out of Malaysia!And I am the only one in my family who don't have a passport.My sister went to Thailand with my mum last December while my brother went to Shanghai with his friends this June.I am damn lame right?Don't ask me why don't I have a opportunity to go overseas.I just blame for my bad luck.So if I got the chance, I would like to go to European countries,it's my dreams <3

By the way, for now I wish I can visit my cousins in California,USA.I really want to go there after I finished my STPM exam.But,is it possible? I just hope for the best.

2. New Clothes and stuff like shoes and bags

Every lady always has the same feeling,that they always feel that not enough clothes in their wardrobe.So am I haha.Well I have my own reasons why do I need a new clothes.First, I have finally lose some weight!HAHAHAHA.I am kinda proud of it. So I need to have some new clothes cause most of my old shirts and jeans look kinda awkward now if I put them on me.It's necessary for me to have new one,am I right?lol

3. New hand phone

My handphone was using for about 3 years,it's old enough.I need a new one a touch screen phone.But I want a blackberry or i-phone.Gosh..I want a i-phone so badly!!!!!!!!

i-phone 3Gs

I polished my nails to a pearl pink colour and I put some shimmering on it.It looks nice right?

I am such a narcissism : D
hahaha

Update and some random pictures

2010-08-07T01:31:00.000-07:00

The exact date of STPM has been officially released a few days ago

It's fall on 23th November 2010.We still have like 100 days to go.Hmm whatever don't feel like talking much about it.I took some pictures these few days ; )

London Roll in cream flavor : D

Maybelline magnum volume mascara
I bought this during sale

Jie Shi gave me a cute pinkie strawberry key chain ^^
but i don't really think it suits me haha

We can't believe in dreams.Someone ever told me dreams is the opposite of realities.So what had happened in your dreams would not be happened in the real life.

After that incident,I had learnt a lot, I think so. Don't be too persistent over some little things though you may not treat it as a "little" thing.You might take it seriously but it always comes into VAIN. This is what I had learnt from my lesson.

It doesn't matter now.Every single person.Everyone.Everything.

I am kinda addicted to edit pictures : D

Privacy and Curiosity

2010-07-28T07:12:00.000-07:00

I had made my blog private.Only those invited people can read my blog.

Bad news always spreading fast especially in a small town,little class and tiny classroom like this!

Once u have decided to have your own blog which means everyone can read what u have written on it u should have prepared for the consequences like there are some people who are "over caring" for your stuff start to annoying you!

I had been annoying by my friends in school today.What the fuck!The more you wanna keep the secret,the easier the secrets be leaking out.Enough! I have said if I wanna tell you anything that is related to me,I will tell you.If I don't wish you to know about it,c'mon you don't have to keep spying on me!Well I'm sorry maybe you are only my "normal" friend, you are not allowed to know me that much.That's kinda hurt but well that is me.Only the person I think is trustworthy can share the little things inside me.

And one thing that the reason why I never talk on about that to anyone except some of my net friends(I know two of you are reading my blog now lol xD) is well net-relationship seems a kinda stupid thing to most of you(maybe I don't know),when you guys know about it,I can imagine your reaction!You would be like hey what the hell you been with someone you never meet and he's even that far!Maybe he's cheating on you or playing with you?Stop wasting your time and energy find a local guy,concentrate on your studies and bla bla bla................................

Yeah I know that is only small part of it.More and more will keep "bombarding" my head lol.So that is the reason I never tell anyone.Hmmm..So thanks for not mentioning it anymore please? And I seriously hoping you guys don't spread it coz it's kinda embarrassing you know! >

Bye

Your mind is the scene of the crime

2010-07-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

I went to watch a movie Inception with asther well Sher yan should join us but she's busy to do her facial haha

This movie is damn cool though it's a bit confusing at the beginning but pretty exciting when the story goes on.

Somehow I think that this movie is for the intelligent or brilliant people because u need to use ur brain to think or else u won't be able to understand what's the story about.

Plot:

Dom Cobb is a skilled thief, the absolute best in the dangerous art of extraction, stealing valuable secrets from deep within the subconscious during the dream state, when the mind is at its most vulnerable. Cobb's rare ability has made him a coveted player in this treacherous new world of corporate espionage, but it has also made him an international fugitive and cost him everything he has ever loved. Now Cobb is being offered a chance at redemption. One last job could give him his life back but only if he can accomplish the impossible-inception. Instead of the perfect heist, Cobb and his team of specialists have to pull off the reverse: their task is not to steal an idea but to plant one. If they succeed, it could be the perfect crime. But no amount of careful planning or expertise can prepare the team for the dangerous enemy that seems to predict their every move. An enemy that only Cobb could have seen coming.

Ellen Page
She is the only female character in tbis story. I like her = )

New Journey

2010-07-22T02:32:00.000-07:00

Make a new schedule for my study time.Yeah it's time to get all my books before it's too late.And I should face the reality based on the fees,expenses,and the most important thing that's my result.So I'll choose a local Uni = /

I'm still not sure about the courses.I am a person without dreams.I'm good at nothing like a loser.I am not going to make myself seem too miserable here because I am deserved it and I don't wanna to sound like it's the end of the world because it is NOT! All of these are just some minor obstacles that everyone would meet in their life so I don't have to act like I am the most pitiful person ever since.And so that's all my grumbling.

Vividly emblazoned in my mind

And yet you're so far

Like a distant star

I'm wishing on tonight

I'm telling myself: Learn from the mistakes.

I don't wanna talk about it

2010-07-21T06:09:00.000-07:00

I can tell by your eyes
That youve probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky
Dont mean nothing to you theyre a mirror
I dont wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here wont you listen to my heart
My heart

If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the color of my heart
Will they be blue for the tears
Black for the nights we spent apart
And the stars dont mean nothing to you
They're a mirror
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
Oh if I stay, if I stay here
Wont you listen to my heart

I dont wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay, if I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here wont you listen to my heart
If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the colors of my heart

2010-07-10T23:07:00.000-07:00

I have been neglecting my blog for quite a long time
I went to KL with my family for about three days
Enjoyed a lot with my cousins and i wish i could stay there longer = (
then i started working in my aunt's office
my task is quite easy but it's damn bored
and i don't know how much is the salary
well i dare not to ask LOL

Just back from melacca yesterday
a nice backpacking trip = D
we stayed in a super cool "hotel"
it's not an usual hotel that we usually stay it's kinda like a malay style's kampung house
its owner is a chinese family and they are nice = )
actually i wanna post some pics of our trip but my lousy net..Zzzzzz
and i can't even upload it to FB = =
we went to pahlawan shopping then went to jonker street at night
we sit at the bar there and watched football match and looking for some angmoh hunks too xD
(bla bla bla, i've forgotten what we did lol)

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
( this is the post when i cane back from melacca)

Down

2010-05-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

我的心情很down,down到谷底
和人吵架真的好累哦
从来没试过隔空吵架，感觉很不好
You are such a bloody jerk! I HATE U!

Speaking test

2010-05-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

my speaking is finally over in this morning

the examiners are quite good and they make u not that nervous = )

well my topic is quite easy..the question is

What's the greatest impact on student's academic performance

A- study habits

B-sleeping habits

C-leisure activities

D-network of friends

I'm candidate A so I start to present my points first

Actually I'm not that nervous but somehow I stuck when saying out my points = (

grhhhh >.<

And then when coming to task B about the discussion part lmao : D

super funny XD

I can't stop laughing and I can see the examiners are tittering too XD

hahha it's super funny seeing all of us arguing over the points

three of them shooting me T^T

and I work very hard to persuade them >.<

shu hui is really fantastic..she's using all the Biology stuff when presenting her points =.=

Bloody hell I think even the teacher doesn't know about the "bio words" lol

so yea she's sure can the highest marks

anyway I should feel relieve that I've finished it!!

= )

But mid-year exam is coming really soon >.<

so fucking annoying =.=''

2010-05-10T06:19:00.000-07:00

Happy moments,praise God.

Difficult moments,seek God.

Quiet moments,worship God.

Painful moments,trust God.

Every moments,thank God :)

Camwhoring~

2010-05-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

It's been the most tiring week for me
I went to school at about 7am and back home at 6.30pm = X
Busy for school stuff and I am really lacking of sleeping time = (
I always stay up late for no reason..that's a bad habit tho
Next Wednesday is my speaking test..I'm freaking scare of it.-.-
I hope I'm lucky enough on that day..get an easy topic and lots of idea come out from my mind..
God Bless me please....I need Your blessing..

That day I went to a talk for the subject Pengajian Am.It's totally bored and crap.

Most of us drowsed off there and we kept talking rubbish..LOL..We even played "truth or dare" in there..
I hate to play this since when I first know got such a game
I was avoiding myself to play this all the time.It's the most dislike game for me.-.-
Do u want know the reason?yeah I'm telling u now.
First,when u are unlucky be chosen to make decision whether u want to choose "truth or dare",honestly,I always would pick the "truth"(if I was forced to play>.<).Because nobody would know whether the answer from you is true or fake,sure it can't be too fake or people would not let you go.haha..
I admit I'm a coward,我玩不起.
If you asked me to do some weird action in the public,tell you i would turn my head and run away..haha XD
So I would choose "truth" and everytime the question is the same..=.=
Like do u have a person that u admire now?how many bf/gf u ever had?how many person that woo u altogether?
Maybe of our environment and being in the girl school,the question that would be asked are way too boring no some "explosion" like in others.haha..So I can handle the question well without turning my face to greenish..LOL
But..it's not a very pleasure feeling to answer all those question tho..when I give them my answers,they were like"are u telling the truth"? Hey most of the time I'm telling the truth ok? Because the answer from me are seems too impossible.

For example,
Do u have a bf?
No
When is ur 1st love?
No i haven't had a bf yet
Do u have a person that u like now?
Hmmpp..Nope..
And etc.....
It's ok if playing with my friends that know me.But if playing with the friends that I just knew them,it's a bit embarrassing..=.=''
Conclusion,I Hate playing this!! >.<

Back to the story about the talk.It's finished at about 3pm and we get on our school bus for coming back to school.By right we should go to our home after this but we ended up strolling in Bp Mall..haha..It's my idea to go there coz i felt like didn't want to back home so soon and i just simply said to them my idea and they were fully agreed with me!!hahaha...We are really come from the same school XD
We went to sushi king.It's the first time i went there.And we took lots of pics ^.^

my idea XD

You see my hands is on right side

And change to left side XD

funny XD

There are other pics on my FB.

On that day.I was totally worn out.O.o

After back from Bp mall at around 6.30pm,my mum asked me whether i want go to Hainan association for a charity dinner.I was tired but I don't why I answered her "yes".so i set off at 7pm.It's a boring and long time dinner.It's a bad habit gor the chinese.Why?Because we love to pocrastinate things especially during dinner.Normally when the dinner is said to be started on 7pm,many people would arrive at 7.30pm.

As if the later u arrived,the more higher status u are.==''

took in car

i'm freaking bored and super tired for the long waiting

Back to home at 10.45pm

=.=

I can't sleep yet coz i still work that haven't done!!

Washing my uniform(coz i only have one)

Helping eva to search for the IQ questions

Print out the name list for moral activity

I only done with the first one >.<

Coz I couldn't find any suitable IQ questions and what'd made me mad was i lost the file for the name list!

Dang..i was super tired at that moment so i decided straight away went to sleep XD

_END_

p/s: the following i was like a person who hangover

sleeping all day XD

Complicated feeling -.-

2010-05-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

I can't describe this kind of feeling clearly..It just feel like Sucks..

LOL i love to use this word a lot..it can truly express my feeling

I hate to be misunderstood by others or they got the wrong idea about me

　I always wanna to give a good impression to the people

And I HATE to be the “topic" when people are gossiping -.-

It makes me feel like I am a fool.

So friends,please don't take me as the "spotlight" ok?

I know maybe u all are only kidding or something but i don't like it..

it feels..Weird and Uneasy..

LOL

I'm a weirdo..yeah sometimes i feel like that..

~~I'm trying hard to get over that matter~~

~~I believe I can do it!!~~

~~= )~~

McD + Mother's day + God celebration(妈祖游街）

2010-05-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

On Sat which was a Labour day,I went to my aunt's house for a party at first i thought it was some usual family gathering but actually they were celebrating the Mother's Day.LOL

My dad,uncle and aunt are great mahjong player XD

my phone's camera sucks =.=

2 yummy cakes ^^

On Sun,chia xin and I went to have our lunck in McD and she wanted to go to have a look about the handphone selling fair.The phone that were sold are damn cheap and i-phone only sold at RM450!! I want itso badly coz it's damn cool.All touch screen and seems high tech XD.But all the phones there are fake one from China.So yea forget about that.

Our lunch = )

Night time I went to Hainan Association with my family for what God's celebration（妈祖游街） I don't know what it's actually.Just went there before going for our dinner.

inside view

Each of us took one

we hold the lantern and walked for 2 hours followed the people and float. on the road, many people watched us felt kinda weird =.=

about at 9.30 pm we came back to the same place.My legs were numb >.< and all sweating.

headache =.=''

I got the exam time table today.It starts from 18 May to 4 June.

I can feel the stone again it comes to me and stay in my heart.

Gosh..I hate this feeling.

Only left 2 more weeks before the exam. Kinda stress.

Like I don't have mood for studying.All I want is go for trip.Any trip.

At least can run away from these.

And that matter too.

= (

Learning From Your Mistakes

2010-04-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

Human isn't perfect we make mistake all the time
The main thing is you've learned something from your mistakes

  I didn't get the chance to go for a school trip on July =.= well Eva said she'd buy me something when she return haha.Anywhere I just felt a bit disappointed because the trip seems fun >.<

These few days I'm pissed off by a friend.Yeah I still treat this fellow a friend but this person is just going too far.I wanna tell this person,think twice before you said anything! I don't know why you're so like making fun of me!Because I won't angry in front of you..yeah so far the 18 and a half years in my life I never show my frustrated face in front of people but it doesn't means I Won't!

  Grrggghh.. I miss my old friends = / Ok some new friends are good too..LOL I'm sick of putting a smiling face to everyone even though you don't like the person. I know it's so much cruel in a real society and I'm just in a high school now and things are much easier and simple. I know I would get more hurt and betrayal when I get into society so i gotta learn it now.

  I'm impressed by one of my friend.She's so professional in lying to people.LOL.Her story always makes us ROFL.haha..

  This week sucks = X almost moody everyday..I miss a truly Smile from my heart.I'll get better soon because I'm strong to get through all these(I guess so). I'm getting emo..Why is't so?Though  it's pain but I still have a long way to go.Isn't it?

Thanks for being my friends

2010-04-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

I want to thank my BFF u guys really rocks!!
Ur always there whenever I need u no matter what the silly troubles I have
And what had made me touching was You Never Judge
U listen and give me some good and positive advices
and always cheer me up
I love u guys
Sounds mushy but it's true words from my heart
especially recently coz i never knew i would stuck by all these stuff
and it's way stupid and silly
Gosh I don't want to be a fool
Anywhere
I think that It's end....
No more day-dreaming and think of those silly thought in my mind
Yea i'm a person that kinda easily cheated by people
Too simple and ok..I don't want to admit..and stupid.. = X
I'm just too believe people's words and put my emotional into it
So it brought troubles to me
And in my own world,
There's only Black and White, No so called Grey area
I like things to be clear
maybe it makes my personality a bit busybody LOL XD
But I don't care! I like being myself the limit is I don't hurt people
So who cares what's the true personality I am?
Right?

One thing I want to say is
Don't ever try to search any news or gossips about me,
if there's something I want to tell u then it's fine.
But please don't go and ask others things that related me.
I'll let u know unless I'm willing to do so
Or else please keep ur mouth shut
I'm kinda care about my privacy,do u clear?

Good nite = )

2010-04-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

My Muet test had finished most of the parts
and i think that there's a high possibility for me to resit the paper again
coz i think i did quite bad on writing part seems like not enough points =.=
anywhere just prepared for the worst
and my Speaking part is on 12th May a day late than my friends..Shi*t
Hope i can do my best = )

I'm damn moody recently
only me know the reason and yea one of my best friend too = P
I think that i'm just way too stupid really
Nobody would understand
Even me also don't understand myself

明知道这么做根本无济于事
干吗还去尝试呢？

Thanks to my dearest friend..I can't say ur name here but u know i'm saying u ^^
i won't let myself gone too far..i know where's the limit..i'm not that stupid ok??
All the best to me,in whatever things
= )

2010-04-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

About 3 more days to my muet test

Argghh...i wanna screamed for that!!

I don't ask that much i just hope that i can at least get band 4

I really don't wan to retake it

But what had made me fed up was the date of my Speaking test is different with my other friends

Due to some technical problems, I am sure that I join with the outsiders who came to my school for muet test

WTH...>.<

Why am i be so unlucky all the time =.=

No strength anymore

Just hope that I am lucky enough on exam day

All the BEST

2010-04-20T04:15:00.000-07:00

说好了不要再管其他人的事了
但是憋在心里真得很辛苦！
受不了一些人的所作所为

U guys are really disgusting!! From head to toe!

I really don't understand why u all do that!

U're going to hurt her do u people realized??!!

Again..this is non of my business but i just feel pity for her
he's going to ditch u!! U knw!!
i really wanna to tell u this but i can't
what u've said to me made me more guilty:
" haha
u have no idea how we fall in love
i'm sure that he won't, unless i want to give up first"

= X poor girl..things are not that simple u know..
i'm really feel sorry about u
once u have finished ur exam,.i don't know when'll he talk to u
aikss..T.T

To those had mad things complicated,
yea it's ur choice i can't comment anything
But i really can't stand with u two ppl!!!
U told me u guys are not couple but what u've done are much more than a couple!
"she's only a special friend to me"
yeah..really that special huh..till u can talk to each other everyday and wrote all that mushy things
美人鱼&海狮 =.=
that's what u called to each other
u said if i understand u better i wouldn't be pissed off by all these even if im ur gf
Oh please!!No girl would endure all these stuff OK??
There's no one could let any girl tag her pics and wrote on ur wall everyday to their bf!
and u said it's nothing??
c'mon if she's my friend i would definitely chop u into slices!!
i mean it!!
How can u treat her like that?
If u've no feelings to her why don't u tell her as soon as possible??
Please stop giving all that excuses!!
just admit that U are a PLAYBOY!
that's enough for any explanation!

i'm just waiting u two change ur status in FB from "single" into "in a relationship"

since u keep saying that u don't feel like wanna a gf right now
fine...i'm waiting and see!!

To the poor girl..feel sorry for u..But that's nothing u can do if the one u love don't love u anymore

Buck up

(Interesting story huh..if all they said are truth it's sure a fantastic story then!)
=.=''

我是笨蛋

2010-04-19T06:39:00.000-07:00

~~说还是不说~~
~~说还是不说~~
~~最后我决定了，不说~~
~~庆幸昨天压抑着内心的冲动~~
~~不然我一定会为我的冲动付出代价~~

~~有时，事情往往没有想象中复杂~~
~~抱着看热闹的心态不是很好吗？~~
~~干嘛那么转牛角尖？~~
~~想那么多只会增添自己的~~烦恼
~~无论事实如何，都不管你的事~~
~~你只需配合人家，结果怎样都没差~~
~~你还是你~~

~~你还是要考那死人考试~~
~~你还是有很多事情等待你去解决~~
~~你还有很多事情还没完成~~
~~你还是这世界里的一粒尘埃~~

~~所以，想那么多干嘛？~~
~~少烦恼一些无聊事多看两本书不是很好吗？~~
~~我真搞不明白为什么你会那样？~~
~~为别人的事操心~~
~~搞不好一切只是一场骗局~~
~~就等着你这个八卦又容易相信别人的笨蛋上钩！~~

~~拜托，你已经没有很聪明了~~
~~不要再为自己犯下的傻事再添一庄~~
~~没有人会因为你所做的蠢事为你喝彩~~
~~他们只会在你背后嘲笑你~~

~~所以，凡事别太认真~~
~~说过，笑过，就算了~~
~~别太耿耿于怀~~
~~对你的脑袋没帮助~~

与你共勉之

Life's is More than a roller-coaster!!

2010-04-18T07:57:00.000-07:00

I should blog about chyi's birthday..BUT..i got something more exciting and important(not that important actually) than this!!!

OMG!! Friends,sometimes i really think that paparazzi is very very suitable for me!!!YES I T DEFINITELY IS!!! WTH MAN!!

Why all complicated things always stick with me?yeah i like something exciting but definitely not complicated ok?

And i'm gonna ask why always i'm the first one to know about other people news..actually i'm not so happy of knowing all these sucks things!! coz troubles always come..sigh..=.='' People,thanks for calling me reporter..I deserved it! >.<

C'mon~let those irritating things away!!!!!!!!!!

Concentrate on ur study please!Stop concerning about "strangers'' things!!That are their business NOT urs ok!!!!Mind ur own business first before u go to busybody other's!